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Julia Santos's avatar

wish I could listen to your playlists... dance music is the best buffer against my anxiety as well

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Haaniyah Awale Angus's avatar

Not sure what streaming service you use but here’s my favourite SoundCloud playlist ! Also thank you for reading 🫶🏽🥺

https://on.soundcloud.com/DndeWnanQohWl9P0ph

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Isabelle Espaldon's avatar

Incredibly vulnerable and eloquent! I deeply relate to music being a salve for anxiety.

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namatayi <3's avatar

your words speak so deeply to me. like genuinely this is such a beautiful essay (i saved it for work hehe) you speak of things that i feel so deeply especially growing up with anxiety as a child. though for me it has manifested into something else now but i will never forget the way i thought other people's lives were more interesting more worthy more deserving of my attention. im always overcome with this idea that I'm just not as interesting and everyone is on this huge joke and one day the rug will be pulled form out beneath my feet. this is hilarious because i read your words and think it is insane that people you think are so cool, talented and interesting people that you get excited to see at house parties, birthday parties (!!) have the same soul crushing thoughts as you do. the same kind of thoughts that wrap themselves around your lungs, your bones and your chest and squeeze.... how mortifyingly wonderful to know that we all feel as awful about ourselves on one hand this sucks i hate that we feel this wya i wnat to kill everyone who made e feel this way and bathe in their blood but also...thank god im not alone. i cant imagien whats worse. anyways. i lpve your writing. not even saying that in the empty oh i love what you write way i mean this form writer to writer you speak to me and im so grateful to have been witness to this! thank you for your offers of love here and sorry for this long ass comment

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mary wallace's avatar

haaniyah you are literally one of the coolest people I’ve ever had the pleasure of following on this internet.

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Praise Vandeh's avatar

Your vulnerability really enriched your writing Haaniyah. I love love reading you. A gift!

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Minna's avatar

Always a pleasure to read your work xx

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Mia Darling's avatar

beautiful and authentic musings of anxiety and ADHD and their ways of spiraling. i’m wondering now if noise canceling headphones might help me maintain focus 💗

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